Feelings and all That Jazz

How do I feel as a woman dealing with infertility?

Sad, out of control, a failure, abnormal, weird, blamed, empty, ugly, shamed, alien, foreign, ********************************unworthy**************************************

A few descriptive adjectives but a lot of meaning. I don't want this to seem like a pity party or that I am totally and completely depressed all the time b/c I am not. I am truly happy for the blessings that God has given to me in my life. I know that He will guide me to my true destiny when I am ready for it. But each day, one of these adjectives pop up in my world and I have to fight to push that pesky little adjective deep down again so that it won't bother me.

Enough! Onward and Upward!!!! I have an appointment at the RFCC tomorrow. More info to come. Cross your fingers and toes for good news, in some form or another. I'll take it whenever I can get it.